Forgiveness

The issue of forgiveness is something I struggle with almost every single day. My faith tells me I should forgive but it was difficult to find this forgiveness, because the feeling were burning beyond reason, and could not be rationalized away.

Forgiveness does not change the past. Does not erase what was done then. Prison caused by anger and hurt, the misery spread out into the lives of those around me…Time to move on with living thought are ever turning backward…

Forgiveness has the power to transform us and change the future we are creating out of our attitudes and actions. Forgiving is looking the pain, learning the lesson it has produced.

I try to end the cycle of revenge, the hurt and anger could have been stored deep in me… but where and when would that end?

I believed, by God’s grace there was also plans for me to expose me to certain necessary tools that have brought me to this understanding…I no longer feel a need to stay attached to all the pain and anger as a way to feel righteous and justified for being hurt. It prevents me from fully healing from those things that hurt me so much. And that pain is real no matter who or what the reason for it was. It is a choice what we can do with the pain, sometimes our only Choice.

So, to sum up, I’m looking to your dreams for help in resolving pain and anger that may arise because I cannot sincerely forgive. I'd wished to do mainly for myself in hope of letting go of the pain…coz I could not ignore the fact that this was not in the end about YOU who caused this, but about Myself. It was something that I struggled with tremendously…

Wherever you are…I am able now to give you, unconditionally, my forgiveness… I am giving you peace and also myself. I now know myself outside of the shadow of your pain and the perceptions of others who continue to look everywhere else but within to find a reason for their suffering…So, once again…hear me: I forgive you - for all pain you cause me...